Intuition is a precious gift I was born with. Over the years I learned to master letting intuition lead my way. Don't think; act and give trust in the existence that you chose well. This is the motto that allows me to be creative and free.
My personality is split between a self-centered individual artist who likes and needs to express himself and an artist who is a sensitive observer, a viewer who can disconnect himself from the scene and inspect the other neutrally. The power and authenticity of my artworks come from combining myself with the subject. For me, documentary filmmaking and photography isn't about an objective observation that is filmed and recorded. By being a documentary maker I must create a manipulation with a statement to express, and leave the viewer to be confronted with and experience his personal understandings, in order to understand what I want to say.
My personal interest in the arts, photography, and film making started at the beginning of my twenties. Fear of becoming a grown man with plenty of complexes, frustrations from hidden parts inside me, feelings of loneliness and that nobody understands or is interested in me, anger from people's hypocrisy and pretensions behavior, and a lot of rages to see how much injustice controls society, were like fuel for me to start digging deeper into my personal conflicts.
Sexuality, drugs, religion, spirituality, and family ties were my main subjects of filming. These themes were like a direct link to my personal quest for understanding who I am and helped me build my unique personality.
Did I choose to provoke and intrigue, by putting my focus and energy on the sidelines of society? Or maybe I didn't have a choice to do so. This isn't a relevant question anymore.
Now at the beginning of my fifties, I have sorted out pretty much most of my personal issues. Instead of shouting for recognition and proving to the world that I'm the best, today I'm more interested in pure aesthetic values like light, movement, structure, and form. Mother nature, being at remote wild places is where I long and crave to be.
The rebel inside me is at ease with himself and I don't need to prove anything to any mother fucker again.
Written By Zohar Kaniel, August 2020.